Friday 31 October 2014

Nov '14



Bap






Woke up on my back,
In my eyes the Sun blasts
There's snow in the ass crack
Somehow riding an iceberg, moving fast,
Broken off chunk of mass, heading down a smooth track

Relaxed,
I must have been drunk, feels like the holidays
Got that smile engraved in my face

City of sea meant

Heavy waters, forgotten fathers
Sad sullied daughters

Watercolour wonder,

Years melt like frozen tears to fill the body under 
Rise up with hunger

This wind feels good biting at my skin
A pinch to see if I'm taking it all in

Time's a blade, dull or rough
Maybe...
That's enough, cops, stuff

A renegade flake in your pink lemonade

When we be little, 
Push-up daisy's in the yard sale

My youth lazy memories

Ancient grain-fed Americans, 
Play-dead renegade

What peace? What cost?
We rest, wind's breath trapped in sky coffins

Side options, I'd offer my affection
But don't leave by God-woman

What is love? Baby don't irk me
Threw it back and forth through space for sport dirty,

Face north spit noise like a slave clock burdened,

Nervous tick talk, jitterbug, 
Case and point, corpse jury

Yeah I listen, I'll take tips
But I'm a plain artist, emptiness the main target

Aim archers, that tongue is hanging out of touch

Handle this, unanimous, smoke minds like cannabis

Hot black carbon glass

Stuffy attics, conscience dust panics 

A watchman, like the rest of 'em
Delighted in the sun, a vegetable in a field of kinfolk

The summit,

Sometimes I forget the spectacle

My blood cells are candles lit 'em up, they flicker clean

Red road to El Dorado sways, lighting the way, rebel to the plot am I hindering?



Nice


The most important thing in life is love
The only ambition is freedom to find truth

I worked fucking hard to start to be where I always was

It doesn't matter what you are as long as that's what you are
Your mind will always be inside your body

I thought and then I came to be

Because we want,

Some of it cold some of it hot
Some below, some on top


Some of you might think you have to bust a beat backwards, like army fuzz radio
Join the carny folk hatable
inflatable halos raised on barney show mistakes

Like I need to pick up some hours to bust capital out from the cages it rattles so I can eat red meat and others may think my smiles genuine
Get a needless purpose
My sound is original 
Clear-air of a neck breather I be invisible
In the physical, jet-blue colour cool as a leopard, don't take, effort's a prison
In the mental cave hollowed out with a disciplined chisel 
What good is all this space you left the fire place a sizzle and it's evading lights a riddle
The rain started to drizzle and the wind feels good on my face

Did you know star dolphins humbly chill with asteroids in the sky? Because I don't
Gun to my stomach no choice I'll gobble waffles 
The rain stopped and I'm wet
Bread too short got stuffed before lunch

If I look at time it's a blade dull or rough
Ideals were never meant for us to hold.
Guilty pleasure to deal with by understanding it
That's not peace on the beach where we don't live

Geronimo! Line our lives up like a timber wolf playing with dominos.
Destiny is about as real as it's impossible
I swallowed my tonsils they were acting up again
Anxious, as if I was trying to be responsible
Love the hope



Parasoul



I'm jumping thru loops keeping my attitude out of tune to prove
There's nothing fresh like the truth when it smiles like afternoon on a sad moon

Take care of those scarecrows, with loaded barrels, we got bows and arrows too, 

Flying in my winged murder of crews to slay and sleuth



Pale definition removed as the portal opens in the mirror that hangs in the bedroom

More than concepts flower

Abstractions bloom and petals perfume 



World is a spinning vinyl, I'm a needle by the groove 

Giving tattoos as tools to folks on stools who carry bad news 

Complimentary cashews, everyone likes free food
Impending doom is an heirloom 



The children are frightened it's all black-and-white, 

The picture moving before you is a cartoon


Drew by lunatics moulded to consume

I'm unaligned with paradigm or clever signs

Apparel, nike-Air servitude and hair-dos 


Youth shuffle slowly in cemented shoes,
Education's a waste, seeking validation, better tomorrow's 
never there to serve you

Slaves for the play-dough, never left the music booth


Slicing up factions, creates fractions, more moles for the whacking

A pacifist is a cynic who loses his rude, and takes a bath

Relaxes half-nude on a roof, getting tan-lines biding time by the fury of Lucy riding on falling nukes

Build my own school next to the sandbox



The left-wing's on sale today, no such thing as a lop-sided angel 


Bend their lies into halos, shorten long tails, a nail in the coffin


Rap this up nice with pretty rainbows and a name-tag glued


All the while hail the wail of snails trudging thru a snowy hell, building shells for God know's who








Underground


I went there in a hood to hide my face and hair
Sunlight shining down in town square
Where no one dares to go it seems 
Or they no longer cared to show themselves

I left town to see the farm-folk
Found the fields but there was no one home
How things grew I don't know
I walked by lantern toe by toe
I heard I should be careful
Tote a gun to be sure
Shoot at what you have to
You can never tell
My shell blasted out of a barrel
To meet the eye of the scarecrow
I think I like his apparel
I think I'll get that hair-do
I heard rambles from a fellow up above
There had been sounds from a spooky house
In the basement I suppose
It must be dark underground, playing with sparks
There's no energy in the area
I passed it by for now
Who knows what I'd find in there
I'd be lucky enough to reach the surface
Without being ensnared
I continued towards the hills
Where the wealthy reside
I heard they had some parties at night
But they mostly stayed quiet
I got an odd feeling passing the Evergreens
Every time I turn a corner I can sense something's watching me
The clouds are laughing like something's funny
All I see are bloodstains on white streets
I quickened my pace
The lamplight was faltering
John lived just up here
At least that's what the post-card said




Sweeter


All this anxiety and I should be positive
But it's fear that has me by the throat like a vice-grip


I worry about where to take a seat

Afraid that I'd position myself at your feet



Wanna puff trees like I used to 

Colourful leaves, sea in my vision, wavers,

Branches reaching down to me, unfruitful - 



Treasured - thoughts chase each other across the vast expanse


I wish I could to pin them down to recruit them

It's beyond sex, I would have cried if I wasn`t so dead
The beauty, verbalize it and it's gone like the wind



Abuse the pillow
Shelter in my dreams, signs projected for me that I couldn't pay attention to


When I was awake, living among you
Orbiting the truth



Home in the moment, try not to concentrate
Cold at the forefront, bones threatening to break

She knew that

Saw me playing with fire for comfort

Or she saw the burns left over when I was too tired to hide them from her



These kids want something

It felt like Christmas, but it was nearly summer


And I'm barely a gentile
And she wasn't always gentle
Respectable, head held high-like

Wrap my fingers around hers
And my nerves melt

Worth nothing, if it wasn't forever

Let you bring me upstairs like I've never been there
Impress my innocence
Make it real enough so we couldn't tell the difference
It hurts when your belief in the chains is the key to releasing them

She came to me this morning and we laughed like it was nothing
Holding hands under the sheets
Companionship, lovely,
 but it was a dream-

She's already gone 
Found another 1
Hair wrapped around your fingers like a spindle
Ring around the rose garden

The tethers been severed,

I no longer measure connection in distance
Or relationships in reminisces
Or displace myself with what I thought was wisdom

I knit my memories a sweater
A keep-sake where possession failed

To be love everywhere
Without a stare
Without a care




Instant

Sail swift my drifting kamikaze
Lift me to your graces
If you can

I blame you for everything
Who are you?
Did I make you then
When I grabbed a pen
Or when I saw what had been
Through that other lens
Reflection of a sail on the water
My only friend today
But daily 
You're there
Barely a care
Blanketing airs
With your affairs
Lets sink as a pair
I suppose I'm your captain
And you're just laughing
The banks the other way
So it's funny for both of us, isn't it?
Knowing there's no difference between us
Not knowing where we're headed, knowing there is no such thing as a visit





Disintegration



Treat the system like a lover and fuck it without a rubber
Johnny dropped off his apple seeds - we're all in trouble


If I had a penny for my every thought, I'd still be out of circulation
This is something I made on a graveyard - shifts from the basement to addicts persuasions



Objectively, who are these entities, swimming freely in my brain?
Make-believe deities, yelling they sacred, swollen from the tele - listen,

There's no enemies, you feel me
I've been learning
Observing with the earnestness of a child
The mind desires, grinding gears of empires 
I climb atop a spire and admire

Bats attack and spinal tap, blood splashes on sights they try to wire
Social order idle eyes blink, awkward and wild, 
Breathe fear-inspired fire, 

Tactical black heli-cats pass over grasslands en masse to defile
Fury in time with my rhymes, signs, thin lines blurred by the mile

Life's not a bitch, she's a woman that's curvy
Heard the news from the grapevine, truth smiles,
Signal received?
Secret police

Here to fry the circuitry 
I'm all about birth, so I murder out of courtesy
Sunburst thru the curtains, blasted with purpose, live thru mercy
I've been elastic thru the tragedy, snap-backed thru the battling

Thankfully I let me, plant my seed in the nervous, 
Grow me an apple tree in my vision, thirdly, I'm hungry
Thoughts beg me, they're too needy to serve me

I don't pity you, sorry, Sorrow,
Spare me your elegant sparrow
You live inside the issue
Kill me today like I will tomorrow, 

Re-invent the wheel, I'm here changing the cargo

What you're experiencing is
A product of conditioning, I'm not concentrating, I'm listening
While my tip of tongue is whispering

Effort won't bring you closer to the mission's end, 

Like the education, individual dismissal
We all want the same things, yet we lick the rock, bottom of the barrel 

Rebel yell, but you can't speak or spell cousin, try and raise a fist with a hand tied to a ballista, 
Wheel round-about, pop a canvas out, make the colours shout

This is nothing but a hand-out

It sorta be sorcery from the source
Don't tell-tale my heart won't melt, eyes dwell when I see angels

I knelt if they let me
Pass on the belt, 
A childhoods darker than it should be stuck where the brooms lean with a million tons a rufulin?

Mix the hero in, head swollen, chattering blood cells and the mood swings like heavy wind-driven weather patterns

I'm an umbra dark like military duty
Keep it, what's not suited
And don`t fuck with my music




Death


I'm Death. Feel me when you're trying to feel alive.

I'm expressed through these lines, when you're stressed about time.

I'm closer with every breath, I'm closest when your eyes are opening and you're trying to deny them.

I'm Death, I help you get things done. Hang over your chest and your head like the sun.

I melt away when you're having fun, when you're feeling blessed or when you're making love.

I'm Death, I make you look for purpose.
Try to find connections that fell below the surface.

I'm the dirt you sunk your beliefs in,
I'm a tree rooted in reason,
I'm yours like the seasons.

I can hold your hand at any moment,
I'll encourage you to keep going, good soldier.

You and I are not opponents.

I'm Death, haven't I been there every step of the way?

When life wasn't around, wasn't I there to play?

I'm Death. My rests create melody, there is difference between Hell and me.

You are Me, when your mind is occupied.

You hidden behind a curtain.

Do I still make you nervous?




Evening out


I'm evening out in the daytime
Relieving myself in the streamline
Forget about the wind of the rewind
I'm in the sunshine, appealing to the heaven inside to look alive

Always going back to drugs , what is that?
I'd rather take a slug to my cap, sick of mime hands
Beauty is in the eye that is smouldering
Music, I abuse it, like everything else that hurts me - I feel deserving, mercy

Boys need blue, the kidney's pink
I'm koi with the fish, swim in the tank
A limitless gaze thru a windowless frame
For God's sake

Wounded voice drips ink, my fingers sink in my ears and drink
Sometimes it's free, sometimes I think too much
Where nothing's never enough, call for the crutch

Soul crush, constants clutch
Blind spot, 
Safety hut
On my knees
Digging thru the mud

Once I wrote to Heather, to tell her, I couldn't be without her
Even though I'm clever I believed then I couldn't doubt her
Summer's over, that's your semester

I'm sober and I lost my four leaf clover
Playing poker with my head
To keep it blank, so I could jack another face

Stand in another place
Cancerous to erase shit that takes the time it takes
To register, but school's out forever

As long as I render the weather
With better endeavours
Too much sweat poured in pleasure, with a splash of punches

Today, I'll have my lunch in the kitchen, we'll talk while you wash the dishes
I'll write while you listen, let's make our single spirit kindred




A Wheel


Unfallen tears push my hair out grey


Refused to believe you could be feeling the same 

That the unburied dead are covered by the sky,

That I needed to teach the ideal, re-invent the diamond


You can get to Heaven from anywhere

You're plummeting, reach a summit before you die,


The road of patience is paved, 


Took yesterday to the grave, I'll be okay, 

I left the bouquet of flowers on the counter, though


Avert my gaze as they get sourer,


Watch the clock tower face as it counts hours

My mind wiped clean, rinse cloud, throw away the towel


Organized religious is contradictive

I'd give up my genetical imprint for a chance at true forgiveness


You can always recognize a god in good humour, 

You wanted the best, you got the best, with a kiss on the tumour


Stick the sun and rays drip,

Water me down like a prescription

The soil's enriched with crooked little pixies,


Growing a field of two-lips to do the talking for me 

When I wiggle out of grip

When it's time to keep a distance, 


The gamma from the image got me wicked,

Check my earthworm stubble while I mumble shit I made up,

Coming from the abyss


Target practiced and the bull's eyes starbright with promise

But all this conflict, don't bet 

Forgot your wallet in your other pyjamas


I prey on piranhas, take the whole school out in muddy waters

Victoria, I'll tell you a little secret -

I'm only sleeping, now what have you been keeping?

I'm trying to relate with the unconscious, but they're all leaving






Thin King


Ride the rails, blazing infinity

Hats off to you backseat, red car,


To the hills, and over 


Power wheels under a covered wagon

There is a ghoul among the ghosts of the known


A nice bath on January the 1st, 

Grab my tea and biscuits go to the orchard 


Dead dud of a star looking at me while I walk hammering into the wet black


The mountain wallows


I miss the top looking up from the bottom

I find it hard to swallow 


If I climbed that

I fear I'd forget


The slow crawl in the pounding heart of the corpse

I listen to remind myself what could always be

Round the bend I found a street that killed desire


No sound necessary





You

I like the way you dance around imperfect sight, yellow light.

Yellowed paper.
Carbon fit for life-form.

Hey, how do you do?
If we're gonna do it, I'd rather do it in the nude
Literally,
It's not you it's me,
You're so civil and crippling
And I broke in your castle with chipped teeth

I never kept my nose clean,
and I believe you never let me

Romantic notions of popping from paintings
a chimney sweep

Dream Jiminy tells me to hold you warm
and when I finally do

Start to explain no more where I go
and speak only in response

To sort, we deepen,
depending how high one may never see the Beacon 

Out of the hole and take a peak,
After dark lights the eyes

Seek a ledge, run and leap

Faithless bridges and smoky heaps

A wasted Christmas
on tasteless lenses

It's not about you 
Time, an accident
But not for you