Nov '14

Bap

Woke up on my back,
In my eyes the Sun blasts
There's snow in the ass crack

Somehow riding an iceberg, moving fast,
Broken off chunk of mass, heading down a smooth track

Relaxed,

I must have been drunk, feels like the holidays

Got that smile engraved in my face

City of sea meant

Heavy waters, forgotten fathers

Sad sullied daughters

Watercolour wonder,

Years melt like frozen tears to fill the body under 

Rise up with hunger

This wind feels good biting at my skin

A pinch to see if I'm taking it all in

Time's a blade, dull or rough
Maybe...

That's enough, cops, stuff

A renegade flake in your pink lemonade

When we be little, 

Push-up daisy's in the yard sale

My youth lazy memories

Ancient grain-fed Americans, 

Play-dead renegade

What peace? What cost?

We rest, wind's breath trapped in sky coffins

Side options, I'd offer my affection

But don't leave by God-woman

What is love? Baby don't irk me

Threw it back and forth through space for sport dirty,

Face north spit noise like a slave clock burdened,

Nervous tick talk, jitterbug, 

Case and point, corpse jury

Yeah I listen, I'll take tips

But I'm a plain artist, emptiness the main target

Aim archers, that tongue is hanging out of touch

Handle this, unanimous, smoke minds like cannabis

Hot black carbon glass

Stuffy attics, conscience dust panics 

A watchman, like the rest of 'em

Delighted in the sun, a vegetable in a field of kinfolk

The summit,

Sometimes I forget the spectacle

My blood cells are candles lit 'em up, they flicker clean

Red road to El Dorado sways, lighting the way, rebel to the plot am I hindering?

Nice

The most important thing in life is love

The only ambition is freedom to find truth

I worked fucking hard to start to be where I always was

It doesn't matter what you are as long as that's what you are

Your mind will always be inside your body

I thought and then I came to be

Because we want,

Some of it cold some of it hot

Some below, some on top

Some of you might think you have to bust a beat backwards, like army fuzz radio

Join the carny folk hatable

inflatable halos raised on barney show mistakes

Like I need to pick up some hours to bust capital out from the cages it rattles so I can eat red meat and others may think my smiles genuine

Get a needless purpose

My sound is original 

Clear-air of a neck breather I be invisible

In the physical, jet-blue colour cool as a leopard, don't take, effort's a prison

In the mental cave hollowed out with a disciplined chisel 

What good is all this space you left the fire place a sizzle and it's evading lights a riddle

The rain started to drizzle and the wind feels good on my face

Did you know star dolphins humbly chill with asteroids in the sky? Because I don't

Gun to my stomach no choice I'll gobble waffles 

The rain stopped and I'm wet

Bread too short got stuffed before lunch

If I look at time it's a blade dull or rough

Ideals were never meant for us to hold.

Guilty pleasure to deal with by understanding it

That's not peace on the beach where we don't live

Geronimo! Line our lives up like a timber wolf playing with dominos.

Destiny is about as real as it's impossible

I swallowed my tonsils they were acting up again

Anxious, as if I was trying to be responsible

Love the hope

Parasoul

I'm jumping thru loops keeping my attitude out of tune to prove

There's nothing fresh like the truth when it smiles like afternoon on a sad moon

Take care of those scarecrows, with loaded barrels, we got bows and arrows too, 

Flying in my winged murder of crews to slay and sleuth

Pale definition removed as the portal opens in the mirror that hangs in the bedroom

More than concepts flower

Abstractions bloom and petals perfume 

World is a spinning vinyl, I'm a needle by the groove 

Giving tattoos as tools to folks on stools who carry bad news 

Complimentary cashews, everyone likes free food

Impending doom is an heirloom 

The children are frightened it's all black-and-white, 

The picture moving before you is a cartoon

Drew by lunatics moulded to consume

I'm unaligned with paradigm or clever signs

Apparel, nike-Air servitude and hair-dos 

Youth shuffle slowly in cemented shoes,

Education's a waste, seeking validation, better tomorrow's 

never there to serve you

Slaves for the play-dough, never left the music booth

Slicing up factions, creates fractions, more moles for the whacking

A pacifist is a cynic who loses his rude, and takes a bath

Relaxes half-nude on a roof, getting tan-lines biding time by the fury of Lucy riding on falling nukes

Build my own school next to the sandbox

The left-wing's on sale today, no such thing as a lop-sided angel 

Bend their lies into halos, shorten long tails, a nail in the coffin

Rap this up nice with pretty rainbows and a name-tag glued

All the while hail the wail of snails trudging thru a snowy hell, building shells for God know's who

Underground

I went there in a hood to hide my face and hair
Sunlight shining down in town square
Where no one dares to go it seems 
Or they no longer cared to show themselves

I left town to see the farm-folk
Found the fields but there was no one home
How things grew I don't know
I walked by lantern toe by toe

I heard I should be careful
Tote a gun to be sure
Shoot at what you have to
You can never tell

My shell blasted out of a barrel
To meet the eye of the scarecrow
I think I like his apparel
I think I'll get that hair-do

I heard rambles from a fellow up above
There had been sounds from a spooky house
In the basement I suppose
It must be dark underground, playing with sparks
There's no energy in the area

I passed it by for now
Who knows what I'd find in there
I'd be lucky enough to reach the surface
Without being ensnared

I continued towards the hills
Where the wealthy reside
I heard they had some parties at night
But they mostly stayed quiet

I got an odd feeling passing the Evergreens
Every time I turn a corner I can sense something's watching me
The clouds are laughing like something's funny
All I see are bloodstains on white streets

I quickened my pace
The lamplight was faltering
John lived just up here
At least that's what the post-card said

Sweeter

All this anxiety and I should be positive

But it's fear that has me by the throat like a vice-grip

I worry about where to take a seat

Afraid that I'd position myself at your feet

Wanna puff trees like I used to 

Colourful leaves, sea in my vision, wavers,

Branches reaching down to me, unfruitful - 

Treasured - thoughts chase each other across the vast expanse

I wish I could to pin them down to recruit them

It's beyond sex, I would have cried if I wasn`t so dead

The beauty, verbalize it and it's gone like the wind

Abuse the pillow

Shelter in my dreams, signs projected for me that I couldn't pay attention to

When I was awake, living among you

Orbiting the truth

Home in the moment, try not to concentrate

Cold at the forefront, bones threatening to break

She knew that

Saw me playing with fire for comfort

Or she saw the burns left over when I was too tired to hide them from her

These kids want something

It felt like Christmas, but it was nearly summer

And I'm barely a gentile

And she wasn't always gentle

Respectable, head held high-like

Wrap my fingers around hers

And my nerves melt

Worth nothing, if it wasn't forever

Let you bring me upstairs like I've never been there

Impress my innocence

Make it real enough so we couldn't tell the difference

It hurts when your belief in the chains is the key to releasing them

She came to me this morning and we laughed like it was nothing

Holding hands under the sheets

Companionship, lovely,
 but it was a dream-

She's already gone 

Found another 1

Hair wrapped around your fingers like a spindle

Ring around the rose garden

The tethers been severed,

I no longer measure connection in distance

Or relationships in reminisces

Or displace myself with what I thought was wisdom

I knit my memories a sweater

A keep-sake where possession failed

To be love everywhere

Without a stare

Without a care

Instant

Sail swift my drifting kamikaze
Lift me to your graces
If you can
I blame you for everything
Who are you?
Did I make you then
When I grabbed a pen
Or when I saw what had been
Through that other lens
Reflection of a sail on the water
My only friend today
But daily 
You're there
Barely a care
Blanketing airs
With your affairs
Lets sink as a pair
I suppose I'm your captain
And you're just laughing
The banks the other way
So it's funny for both of us, isn't it?
Knowing there's no difference between us
Not knowing where we're headed, knowing there is no such thing as a visit




Disintegration

Treat the system like a lover and fuck it without a rubber

Johnny dropped off his apple seeds - we're all in trouble

If I had a penny for my every thought, I'd still be out of circulation

This is something I made on a graveyard - shifts from the basement to addicts persuasions

Objectively, who are these entities, swimming freely in my brain?

Make-believe deities, yelling they sacred, swollen from the tele - listen,

There's no enemies, you feel me

I've been learning

Observing with the earnestness of a child

The mind desires, grinding gears of empires 

I climb atop a spire and admire

Bats attack and spinal tap, blood splashes on sights they try to wire

Social order idle eyes blink, awkward and wild, 

Breathe fear-inspired fire, 

Tactical black heli-cats pass over grasslands en masse to defile

Fury in time with my rhymes, signs, thin lines blurred by the mile

Life's not a bitch, she's a woman that's curvy

Heard the news from the grapevine, truth smiles,

Signal received?
Secret police

Here to fry the circuitry 

I'm all about birth, so I murder out of courtesy

Sunburst thru the curtains, blasted with purpose, live thru mercy

I've been elastic thru the tragedy, snap-backed thru the battling

Thankfully I let me, plant my seed in the nervous, 

Grow me an apple tree in my vision, thirdly, I'm hungry

Thoughts beg me, they're too needy to serve me

I don't pity you, sorry, Sorrow,

Spare me your elegant sparrow

You live inside the issue

Kill me today like I will tomorrow, 

Re-invent the wheel, I'm here changing the cargo

What you're experiencing is

A product of conditioning, I'm not concentrating, I'm listening

While my tip of tongue is whispering

Effort won't bring you closer to the mission's end, 

Like the education, individual dismissal

We all want the same things, yet we lick the rock, bottom of the barrel 

Rebel yell, but you can't speak or spell cousin, try and raise a fist with a hand tied to a ballista, 

Wheel round-about, pop a canvas out, make the colours shout

This is nothing but a hand-out

It sorta be sorcery from the source

Don't tell-tale my heart won't melt, eyes dwell when I see angels

I knelt if they let me

Pass on the belt, 

A childhoods darker than it should be stuck where the brooms lean with a million tons a rufulin?

Mix the hero in, head swollen, chattering blood cells and the mood swings like heavy wind-driven weather patterns

I'm an umbra dark like military duty

Keep it, what's not suited
And don`t fuck with my music

Death


I'm Death. Feel me when you're trying to feel alive.

I'm expressed through these lines, when you're stressed about time.

I'm closer with every breath, I'm closest when your eyes are opening and you're trying to deny them.

I'm Death, I help you get things done. Hang over your chest and your head like the sun.

I melt away when you're having fun, when you're feeling blessed or when you're making love.

I'm Death, I make you look for purpose.
Try to find connections that fell below the surface.

I'm the dirt you sunk your beliefs in,
I'm a tree rooted in reason,
I'm yours like the seasons.

I can hold your hand at any moment,
I'll encourage you to keep going, good soldier.

You and I are not opponents.

I'm Death, haven't I been there every step of the way?

When life wasn't around, wasn't I there to play?

I'm Death. My rests create melody, there is difference between Hell and me.

You are Me, when your mind is occupied.

You hidden behind a curtain.

Do I still make you nervous?

Evening out

I'm evening out in the daytime

Relieving myself in the streamline

Forget about the wind of the rewind

I'm in the sunshine, appealing to the heaven inside to look alive

Always going back to drugs , what is that?

I'd rather take a slug to my cap, sick of mime hands

Beauty is in the eye that is smouldering

Music, I abuse it, like everything else that hurts me - I feel deserving, mercy

Boys need blue, the kidney's pink

I'm koi with the fish, swim in the tank

A limitless gaze thru a windowless frame

For God's sake

Wounded voice drips ink, my fingers sink in my ears and drink

Sometimes it's free, sometimes I think too much

Where nothing's never enough, call for the crutch

Soul crush, constants clutch

Blind spot, 
Safety hut
On my knees

Digging thru the mud

Once I wrote to Heather, to tell her, I couldn't be without her

Even though I'm clever I believed then I couldn't doubt her

Summer's over, that's your semester

I'm sober and I lost my four leaf clover

Playing poker with my head

To keep it blank, so I could jack another face

Stand in another place

Cancerous to erase shit that takes the time it takes

To register, but school's out forever

As long as I render the weather

With better endeavours

Too much sweat poured in pleasure, with a splash of punches

Today, I'll have my lunch in the kitchen, we'll talk while you wash the dishes

I'll write while you listen, let's make our single spirit kindred

A Wheel

Unfallen tears push my hair out grey

Refused to believe you could be feeling the same 

That the unburied dead are covered by the sky,

That I needed to teach the ideal, re-invent the diamond

You can get to Heaven from anywhere

You're plummeting, reach a summit before you die,

The road of patience is paved, 

Took yesterday to the grave, I'll be okay, 

I left the bouquet of flowers on the counter, though

Avert my gaze as they get sourer,

Watch the clock tower face as it counts hours

My mind wiped clean, rinse cloud, throw away the towel

Organized religious is contradictive

I'd give up my genetical imprint for a chance at true forgiveness

You can always recognize a god in good humour, 

You wanted the best, you got the best, with a kiss on the tumour

Stick the sun and rays drip,

Water me down like a prescription

The soil's enriched with crooked little pixies,

Growing a field of two-lips to do the talking for me 

When I wiggle out of grip

When it's time to keep a distance, 

The gamma from the image got me wicked,

Check my earthworm stubble while I mumble shit I made up,

Coming from the abyss

Target practiced and the bull's eyes starbright with promise

But all this conflict, don't bet 

Forgot your wallet in your other pyjamas

I prey on piranhas, take the whole school out in muddy waters

Victoria, I'll tell you a little secret -

I'm only sleeping, now what have you been keeping?

I'm trying to relate with the unconscious, but they're all leaving

Thin King

Ride the rails, blazing infinity

Hats off to you backseat, red car,

To the hills, and over 

Power wheels under a covered wagon

There is a ghoul among the ghosts of the known

A nice bath on January the 1st, 

Grab my tea and biscuits go to the orchard 

Dead dud of a star looking at me while I walk hammering into the wet black

The mountain wallows

I miss the top looking up from the bottom

I find it hard to swallow 

If I climbed that

I fear I'd forget

The slow crawl in the pounding heart of the corpse

I listen to remind myself what could always be

Round the bend I found a street that killed desire

No sound necessary

You

I like the way you dance around imperfect sight, yellow light.

Yellowed paper.
Carbon fit for life-form.

Hey, how do you do?
If we're gonna do it, I'd rather do it in the nude

Literally,
It's not you it's me,

You're so civil and crippling
And I broke in your castle with chipped teeth

I never kept my nose clean,
and I believe you never let me

Romantic notions of popping from paintings
a chimney sweep

Dream Jiminy tells me to hold you warm
and when I finally do

Start to explain no more where I go
and speak only in response

To sort, we deepen,
depending how high one may never see the Beacon 

Out of the hole and take a peak,
After dark lights the eyes

Seek a ledge, run and leap

Faithless bridges and smoky heaps

A wasted Christmas
on tasteless lenses

It's not about you 

Time, an accident
But not for you

Oct '14

I'm so mist

A sly Son shines slick, giving out smile tips

The milky blinds drip onto her prickly thighs, he climbs, 

The vines thick in the spine as it tingles in the Mistress

She sighs shyly while he tries to pry open prior, major misconceptions

O my, Universe, work the light in,

Slide over this shady shaggy carpet get it lit up,

Like those stories we mimic, one size fits all

Disgusted with the wisdom

Motion made matter

Monstrous bloody splatter, as the image gathered in the sun splash

My Holy's tamed quick

Miles in a meter

Ink to the pen

Veins to the feeder

Heart throb and pumps the stomach sick boy

Wraps lips around the generally used for eating orifice

Lick me and link nozzles

Nestled here, 

Home is where the West is

No miss me or mercy, extinguishing expected

Piss on the fire

Picking up the puzzle where we left it

Everything outside is in him, and he's in her

Why isn't she in him, oh wait - 

There she is

Left brain twist, arm plays kid, 

Trigger, click, bang tsk…

Tick Tick Tick trick.

Lift me from this aquarium

The water is so cold and I'm barely numb

I propose a staring contest thru the glass,

We'll collapse and beat our wings and drums in unison

Then again.

Loves so if, 

Salty breath and Spitfire auto-pilots

Be wet -

I'm so mist.

1st Lady

First lady love, you looked so fun

Heart like a planet, smile like the sun

Feel-good smell, scent from heaven

On the run

In your hair - I stand - stranded, 

Here remains the island man, rooted to the one

Tried to add, couldn't find the sum

My attention, I thought you worth the mention

From nervous conversation, to shaking from hatred

From the way your lips taste

To eyes that grew vacant

For when your bold and naked

Or painted with the make-up

From when we fucked and faked it, or glowed true and lovely

Or the first time you wore the coloured lenses with the blue gloves

Explored with a mute touch - glued to something

Nothing collapsed - time is just an accident

Over a thin line, I repel those fish - with a poking stick

Sigh with no regrets,

Fly above the gaps

Prove it with our sweat,

Ooh baby I like it like that

When our minds connected

Loosened up the straps

Time invested, to give you all I have

As a matter of fact, there wasn't much of that

I gave my face to the wave 

And my body to the map

A crippled kid, with no point for comparison

Dribbling words dance across it's embarrassing

Shuddering and hiccuping

My tip of tongue is whispering

To my ears - I'm having trouble breathing

Don't see myself - sinking in the medicine

Eyes runny and red - satin kiss, 

Cuddling a double Dutchess

Psyche-bobble heads 

Miss Sinful, skin like lucky stars in twinkle, kind of hard to let her go

Just like that, pussy on a pedestal - boys are human-fed so slow

She said my first love was drugs, maybe she was right

My first heroine though, I'll remember you for life

Pretended you were dumb, so I could yell and run

And find another gun - in the mirror playing stick-up thumbs

Sept 14'

Purple


Everybody's got a problem
A hole in the pocket, the sock or the wallet

Everybody's got a solvent
Fuck a revolver, bullets got a name on it

Who cares as long as it dissolves before you vomit
Milligram, why don't we augment?

Aw man, you feel rotten?
First-world doldrums

Keep on rocking in the 3rd-world
We be hanging; sleeping possums

One man's fuel is another man's fossils;
But we're the same fish, swim in the tank
Fiend for oxygen

I'm here to subdivide the sum of all fears
Last year was a light year

Learning to roller skate
Judged by my 8's

Spider deals heavy business with Apes
In all of the cat's eyes as they dilate

Shake off the pages, crumpled to the floor
like dead-wait

Leaves rustle, musical scores of time's,
Great potential or wasn't it?
Of course it's all muddled
and doesn't fit, Highschool
was the beginning to the end of my punishment

The meddling
The color purple, O that colour purple
I lunge for it, but burnt-orange's
The colour I've been sent to work with

The melody, but I didn't understand
the beat, the rhythm that can make my
heart ever-so-sweet

I'm a survivalist that does the extreme
to prepare myself for anything.
I apologize for always writing about me
but I haven't even figured that out yet.
Everything is theory, don't even question
that.
Even if I control the weather what
do I do when the Earth splits.


Doctor's Note



Doctor, doctor, doctor,
Doctor, doctor, doctor

Sorry to bother,

I killed my lungs with cigarettes
Minus the sinuses, I'm a mouth-breathing over-achiever

Do have anything for my inflammation? I mean immolation
I feel strong like an anchor.
So what's up with all this blood I've been tasting?

And where are my dreams taking me?
Are you saying I should slave all day and skip out on vacation?

Wild - High lighted in violent
I've been self-medicating with heroin and patience,
But now my bruises started chasing me.

Here's some spirit in a bottle, any sip I take,
I always test the waters.

Pardon me,
Pardon me again
Forgot the broom for the mindswept,
Timekept up in the attic.

Run into the arms of another starving garden,
Cuz I believe in life we love to touch Death.

I've made some guess as to why in G-d we trusted.
And I know I have to go to another for my tooth problems,
So I'll leave you with these, while I ponder and you catalogue 'em.
This; a note to get you out of school tomorrow.


P.S. -  Wrote it with a fountain pen.



Wreck Nervous

Wreck nervous 

Did you sleep tight? - I slept terrible

A great joy dipping buttered bread in soup

Glass eyes - Mossy thighs atop a mountain smile - Hardened hide

She ate right - had a late burial

If only she could've escaped the loop 

Shut the revolving door

Took a shower together said she'd never been this clean in her life - new clue

While the solar-plexus mingles 

Feel tingles

Signal to our fingertips

Nibbling sweet-and-sour consciousness

Shedding funds pay in tuition - inside tension

Supernova, I'm the son that already blew up 

I'm screaming Death in the sleep

As the sky dreams

I'm preserving the limits

A canoe full of shoestrings,

Name Knowah a flowa has known it's a cozy fit

Cupid's boa - Strangles cats

The turn-key in lock

But where's the door?

Love in the park

Love and cigarettes - dead leaves 

In the wind's breath blowing - Night grows

Old grieving

The sky was just a blink

Why waste the time to think?

The hotel, seems like a pleasant place

To find something to lose

The after-attic static - fuckin' panic fanatically 

I'm a manic out of habits

As snakes - look, look, looking to graze on a warm rock today

Tree predators just hanging with hidden saints

Take a page-

Just make sure to bring it back by late Friday

Simon says I better wait, find another place

To stay up late

I fear the quakes begin after the peace and quiet of daybreak

I swear the woodchuck chucks at Spiritlake

Fuck

From the get-go jet-towed, 

On to the next show, assembly row

Company, company

Death toll - hollow halo

Apollo - Plato

Yin-yang moon and the cable guy

Ring ring ring I hear Jesus's on the phone

Dial-tone messiah

There's always ink or blood on my shirt now

Somehow I wish it was dirt now

Brown deafening leaves - Symbols dancing

... 

M.C., prices may vary

Dartbored



I got 8 to 9 inches
You got a 9 mm man
Ashamed copper
Don't you know both our blood-types taste like copper?

An old crow murder of wings sing what's been sung

Sun-Tzu can burn brightly in the light of guns

The Almighty speaks quietly through the flight of nuns

Ever since a child, pretty tiles
Ever since
Walk with me, the outline of my smile

I refer to taste, because I prefer to use my tongue
Seeing colours 'til I feel golden
Dancing lips undercovers heal scars with tight ropes

In a stolen car with borrowed time
To the cheesy moon, we're going far

Stargaze where the heart lays

Whether the verses fit the purpose
I am a mercenary dying for a cause I can't identify with

A flash-flood of thoughts can make me nervous
When curtains part I show the bloodbath the stage is furnished with
When faking it, the thought draped results in blanket statements

In a way I pray to the goddess of memory, Mnemosyne
Remember we,
Defeated ourselves
Remembering

All it takes is a push and a shove and it comes with a warning
Could be disarming belonging to the armies of Zombie

I'll pee on a bush, it's not as dirty as you think it could be
It was burning so I thought I'd save the nearby trees

The elemental momentum

Billy the clubbing, take a note
Like hotel, keeping it best Western

I stopped my stop-watch,
A double negative so time began